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Heartbreak once more.
"I love you, but I'm not in love with you."
I should have seen it
Maybe I was blind
Maybe I was optimistic
But I was wrong
Its worse because she was a woman
She's the type of girl I want my daughter to be
She's the type of girl I'm proud to bring home.
Maybe He has someone better.
Maybe the next one won't give up.

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Her name

Where is she?
True love is not her name.
Nor is the one.
Not even hope.
Does she have a name?
Does she even exist?
Or will I walk alone?

The first was blind love
The second a real thing
Until it left.
The third I thought I Finally got right.
Colorado x 2
Michigan x 1
Where is she?
I ask for a glimpse
A vision
Just so I know she is there
Or is her name

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I feel alone.
I've been working too much
I have no free time
I have no weekend
I have no social life
I have no fun
I have no girlfriend
The woman I love is in Colorado
We never talk anymore
my roommate is a psychopath
My other roommate is a 21 year old child
I make minimum wage, no benefits
No respect, no thank yous.
I have important things to do
I've run out of friends.
I need to get away for a few weeks

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Honestly, one more heartbreak, and its not going to be good. God, I hope you have a plan because this is getting annoying. It is me? It has to be. I know I don't do anything. Could it have been saved if I saw her Sunday and not seen Thor? Wow. For the first time in my life, I really have no one left. At least when kristen broke up with me last year, Greg was around. Now, I spend most of the days in my apartment. One roomate is gone to class and is locked in her room all day, and the other is "living" with her boyfriend. I havent respoded to the txt yet, I dont know if i should, and if I do, what do I say that hasen't already been said. I lose everyone important to me. Cere. Jeanette. Laura. Kristen. Alyssa. It takes a toll on a man. It does. Im suprisinignly calm right now, with a hint of anger. Just, why? I will sacrafice. What am i doing wrong? I just feel sick. And I dont really care about anything. Just. I want her back. Is anyone listening? Does anyone care?

Writer's Block: Gadget Conundrum

You're going on your dream vacation and you can only take one gadget with you. Camera, music player, cell phone, laptop or something else – what do you bring and why? Which other ones would you miss most?

Well, lets nerd this up and break it down play by plmy.
Dream Vacation: Backpacking across Europe with my final stop being in Ireland.
1st, I don't have a camera, so I cant bring one. But if i did, I would not bring it, I barely look at the pictures from my last vacation.
2. Cell phone. Phones dont work overseas, and my cell phone is my least important gadget. I mainly use it to text kristen.
So it is between Laptop and music player.
On one hand, my iPod Touch is kinda like a laptop filled with hours and hours of both sit down and non sit down entertainment, with not as much games or movies. On the other hand the laptop is filled with hours and hours of sit down entertainment. Seeing as how I could live without my laptop as long as i had my iPod Touch, I'd take my iPod. 64 Gigs filled with movies and music. Everything i need, right in my pocket.

Writer's Block: Secret song

What's the most embarrassing CD or track in your music library? How often do you listen to it? Do you share it with your friends or keep it to yourself?

t.A.T.u. I get a lot of crap for listining to them. I dont care what people say, I like their music.

Writer's Block: Between the slices

What's your favorite sandwich? Do you make it yourself or go somewhere special to buy it? What's in it?!

I've spent about $150 this year on this particular sandiwich.
Its a Turkey Tom from Jimmy Johns.
Turkey, Lettuce and Mayo, all on French Bread.
Yummy. I had about 3 this week.
I started livejournal sometime in the 7th grade. I know it is the 7th grade becuase the locker number of the girl i had a crush on was 154. Foolz, well, there was this thing back in the day called Zoog Disney, and to register on the Zoog Disney website you had to have a z in your name. I don't know why I chose fool to add the z to. I'd change if it i could, but meh.

The Rest

Day 15 → A fanfic
I dont really read much fanfic. I can barely read my readings for class

Day 16 → A song that makes you cry (or nearly)
Dido- Here With Me.

Day 17 → An art piece (painting, drawing, sculpture, etc.)

It's a picture of my favorite singer, Sharon Den Adel from Within Temptaion. I had found it in DeviantArt. I just think this is the most amazing drawing I've ever seen. I even made a poster of this for my dorm room.

Day 18 → Whatever tickles your fancy
Jesus Loves You!

Day 19 → A talent of yours
Doing Nothing

Day 20 → A hobby of yours
Staying up all night

Day 21 → A recipe
Open Easy Mac. Pour Water to Fill Line. Microwave 3:30. Mix power. Enjoy

Day 22 → A website
You can make your own posters at home! I used this website to make a poster of the picture above.

Day 23 → A YouTube video


Day 24 → Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 25 → Your day, in great detail
Study for my Final.
Day 26 → Your week, in great detail
Study for Finals. Sunday= Sleep until noon, dad until 1:30, Study Foregin policy until midnight.
Monday= Arise 6:30. Final at 7:45. Library from noon until 5 to write my research paper. Return book due that day too.
If all goes well. Tuesday-Friday, Turn in my reserach paper Pack, clean my room, and play video games

Day 27 → This month, in great detail

Day 28 → This year, in great detail
Got Engaged=> Star Trek => Wrote a list of why I should quit my job (30 or so reasons) => Realized that my current job at the time was not an option for next summer => Applied for a Night Recept Job= > Applied for an internship with the Michigan House of Representatives => Got it. Trip to Maui => Roadtrip to NYC, Boston, and Washington DC => Heat Stroke in DC Had a talking to with the bosses for various reasons => Got the NR Job Bought a PS3 => Applied for a level 3 position at maintenance => Didnt get it => Quit the next day Bought an XBOX 360 because mine RROD'd on me. => started applying to grad schools => finalized the date for the wedding => Applied for a sup position at Night Recept => Got it no problem => Got busted for downloading. (Note, MSU will give you sort of a 3 strikes policy, first time they send an email telling you not to do it again, second time they take away your internet for a week and you have to meet with this guy for an hour and a half, third time (which you are stupid if you take the risk, they suspend you from MSU for a semester and you cannot have internet ever again at MSU) => Internship at MI House of Representatives ended => Finals => Wishing Kristen off to Anartica (Yes, this is true) for winter break and wishing Mick off due to his graduation =>

Day 29 → Hopes, dreams and plans for the next 365 days
Well, im graudating in may, getting married in august, and going to U of M in September. My hopes is that I'll find an apartment and a halfway decent job. I will hopefully be partially the way done with my Masters degree.

Day 30 → Whatever tickles your fancy
Irish history is frickin confusing.

Writer's Block: Friends for a Day

If you could hang out with any movie character for a day, whom would you choose as your sidekick?

Spock- Leonard Nemoy
Dr. House
Srgt. Nicholas Angel
Samuel Fucking L. Motherfucking Motherfucker Jackson.
Jim Halpert
Buddy the Elf
Lindsey Weir
Sharon Den Adel